This is the blog entry that I have kind of been dreading. Now remember, I am not necessarily offering the absolute correct answer.
I know that all of us have had people in our lives that have done wrong to us and that we have done wrong to. I know that sometimes the wrongs done to us can be almost unbearable to the point where we feel that we can never talk to that party again. And for a while, it really seems like we never will again, however, there are times when I believe our spirits soften toward them, if only for a moment. When that happens, I would hope that each one of us would consider the act of forgiveness.
Last year, I went through a time that I never thought would happen. I cannot go into extreme details, but it resulted in me settling for something temporary and something that wasn’t right. I’m pretty sure that reveals more than I intended, however, as a result of my misstep, I ended up having to cut someone out of my life. I am having a problem forgiving them for what they did, and while I know they still love me, I feel that I was taken advantage of. These things are now being shared to perhaps benefit those that may be going through something similar. Because I feel like I was taken advantage of, I am having a hard time loving this person through the hurt I am going through.
I don’t know what will happen next, but I do know that God has been ever present during my misstep, during the after-affects and consequences of my sin, and during my healing and moving forward. I know that at some point, I will let this person back into my life as an acquaintance and not a friend, and I know that while the relationship may be strained at times, it can still be one that honors God. These aren’t necessarily the best answers, however, I know the Lord desires that we do live at peace with one another. He knows that we are not perfect like Him, but I believe that’s why He gives us Himself so that we have the Perfect One to lean on and trust in. The Lord has never taken my heart for granted, He has never sent me in the wrong direction, and He has always loved me perfectly. I’m the one that comprised and chose the wrong path, but at least He made a way for me to get back to the right one. I have to confess, truly, it is SUCH AN AMAZING THING when we let the Lord take hold of the reins of our lives and He guides us through. It brings an intense joy and a wonderful peace, and it has made me glad that I could return to Him.
How do I love the person that hurt me? I can’t. I can’t love the person with the love that I have; it’s just not good enough. The extension of the Father’s love will have to cover it all since I cannot fully love this person any longer. This might not be the world’s greatest entry about love and forgiveness, but it’s the honest one. Sometimes sin does considerable damage. The Lord can restore, though, and miracles can happen.
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